Tuesday, November 6, 2012

The good, the bad, and the worst...

It's been a while since I've last posted, and for those who have read my hiatus post, you know why. So let's start off with the good news.

My laptop is finally working again. It's still working pretty crappy, but it at least turns on and functions to an extent.

Now for the bad news: EVERYTHING has been wiped off of it. All of my swatch photos and EVERYTHINGGGGGG!! So I'll have to re-film the tutorials I had set up (which I never even got the chance to post ONE), re-swatch some of my items, etc. It'll take a hell of a long time, but I'mm get it done. I promise.


Today, I really don't want to think about the swatches and reviews.

I lost a very good friend today, which is what brings me to the worst news...
One of my dogs had to be put down today, and to be honest, I have no idea as to how to handle it... My beloved yellow lab, Cody, was diagnosed with lymphoma a few weeks ago, which was heartbreaking. He was already a survivor of cancer a while back, so to know he was going through it all over again was unbearable. Because of his age, we didn't want to have to put him through radiation all over again, since the previous time he went through it, it was 3 months of misery for him. We wanted him to live out the rest of his life in as much comfort as humanly possible.

The vet told us he had anywhere between 2-6 months left to live, but... he barely made it past 2 weeks... The cancer spread much more rapidly than we thought it would, and resulted in him being hospitalized... He wasn't responding well to his treatment, and began to both swell up and look skeletal (if that is at all possible). My mom and I knew at that moment, we'd have to put him out of his misery...

I can't even express to you how... hard it is to have to put down one of your best friends. Only other animal lovers who have gone through the same thing could understand what it's like. Mom and I stayed by him side to the very end, just like he'd always been for us... and... It was all just so fast... I swear to god, it was like he simply fell asleep...

The moment his heart stopped, so did mine. All I could think about was how well he was doing a week ago; so full of life and emotion, and then to see him lay lifeless... It takes a toll on your heart.

I know there will never be another dog like Cody... He will forever have a place in my heart.

Being home feels so quiet now... While I may have 2 other dogs and 2 cats, Cody was the life of this house. And honestly, his death almost seems like a dream. I don't want to believe he's dead. I can still see him running in the front yard, or rolling across the carpet with the legit smile he always had when he was happy.

If God actually exists, and there's such thing as a Heaven, Cody deserves the highest spot there.

To my very best friend, I love you with all of my heart and miss you more than words can ever express. Your body may have died, but your spirit remains here in this house, as well as in our hearts.

R.I.P. Cody <3